back after a lonnnng hiatus

Hello old members and new members!

I'm back! I haven't posted on this community (or lj) in months but I'm back and really glad to see this community is still alive!

I have about 16 months to lose a great amount of weight and I'm really overwhelmed at this point. I'm at my highest weight and couldn't believe it when I stepped on the scale a few weeks ago. But I'm beginning to try to get healthy again. I'm one week in to eating healthy and less again. I've messed up in one way or another nearly every day but I'm sticking with it for now. I refreshed my ole "Rewards List" to help motivate me again. Basically, I just keep telling myself that In 16 months, I don't want to have any regrets and know I haven't done anything.

The first few days I was very irritable and incredibly tired (carb withdrawals perhaps?) and now I just remain irritable. I hope this gets better because it's never easy for me and the people around me, but it always seems to be this way once I'm eating healthier. I'm trying to keep an open-mind to this journey and not think about all the previous attempts, though it's hard not to.

I'll be posting more from now on. To reiterate, I'm so glad this community is still around because I've found it so helpful and supportive in the past!