A little background about me: I lost almost 60 pounds back in 2008 when I randomly decided enough was enough. It was so strange, as I'd never had the motivation before, but I just got up and did it. However, once I was back to school, the stress threw me into a pretty serious depression, and I ended up succumbing to bad habits and a binge-eating disorder that I still struggle with. I gained back all of the weight and then some.
My highest weight was 251.1, and it stayed around that through the last year. By finally cutting out fast food, I regulated down to about 246-244, which was my weight when I tried, yet again, to lose weight in earnest. Right now, I'm at 233, and I have yet again reached the dreaded slump. See, I benefit from being very in tune with my body, which means I way myself every day. Please don't give me advice about that as virtually every person I've told tries to convince me to weigh myself once a week or month! I know that weight fluctuates. I understand that when the number is higher, I didn't actually gain pounds. But because I see patterns in my system, I notice when things go awry. Usually when I go up in weight, I go down quite a bit the next day. I've gotten stuck at 233 several times now, usually resulting in me dropping to 232 at the lowest without any progress after that. I was nervous when I got there again, but I've been doing so well, I tried to have faith that it would be okay. Then lo and behold, four days in a row, I've had no progress. I've gone up to 234.4 twice, then down to 233.2. I'm eating 1300 calories a day. There's no way I can't be burning fat. But my body doesn't wanna hear it, clearly.
I'm really hoping this is just a temporary slump, that tomorrow I'll start losing again, that it'll be fine. But the last few times, it just stayed like this for a long while before I just gave up. I don't want to do that this time, but man, seeing some progress after my hard work and self-discipline would have been nice.
So anyway, introducing myself again, and hoping to make new friends. I'd also love to connect with other people who are very middle heavy. I have yet to meet another woman with my hideous shape, since most apples have large breasts that even them out (I have no breasts or butt--I'm all stomach), but people who understand how hard it is to deal with that stomach weight are easier for me to relate to. Regardless, I'd just like to make friends with anyone who understands this journey.
Nice to meet all of you!